So I don’t know about you but my fitness goes on the same track as a roller coaster . . . you too?  One thing that keeps me going is I feel gross after too many “not feeling like working out today” days.  Well, there were a lot of sporadic lengths of days like that this summer.  I did more running than working on strength because I had two relays to stay in shape for, but that running was very minimal.

The other thing that happened was OUR TOILET BROKE!  Should that be the cause to not workout??  NO!  But it was!!!  You see we have a scale in our guest bathroom downstairs.  I hardly use this bathroom NORMALLY so I would rarely weigh myself.  Like maybe once a month just to check in, but for the most part I would let my clothes tell me what I weighed or my lungs tell me when I had a hard time walking up stairs – I would know it’s time to run a few times that week in addition to my 3-4 strength training workouts.

So the toilet broke in our bathroom upstairs (close to my office and in the bedroom so it was ALWAYS the one I used).  Well when it broke I had to use the one downstairs with the scale.  I would see the scale constantly (drinking 80+ ounces of water a day will do that!).  I started weighing myself here and there, then it became every morning because that’s when you weigh the least!  Then I started weighing myself 2-3 times a day . . . WHO WAS THIS?!  I didn’t really even realize I was doing this!  I wasn’t losing weight, but I was just making sure I maintained that weight.  You see this year I finally dropped below 140 (139 yeah! haha) I had been at 155 two years ago or so.  I have never been obsessed with the scale until the battery died – that’s when I realized that I was OBSESSING over my weight.  People have been asking me all summer if I have been losing weight and I really haven’t, I have just been more toned than I ever have and muscle looks better than the same weight without tone.  So I LOOK better, but I was SO confused why people thought I was loosing weight and the scale was staying the same!  So I obsessed!

Yes, the toilet upstairs is fixed (only was broken for a week or two until we made it a priority to fix it) BUT my obsession with weighing myself didn’t stop until that battery died.  And wow it took me a few times to realize it was dead – I would be standing on it wondering why it wasn’t working and then realize oh yeah its dead!  Our unconscious brains are STRONG!  Don’t let it get the best of you!

Does this sort of sound familiar?  Maybe you are there waiting for that battery to die?  Yes, we should be aware of how much we weigh, but when it is an obsession, it isn’t healthy!  You will weigh more or less depending on a million different things (more water, more muscle, just ate, haven’t gone to the bathroom recently, time of the day, time of the month. . . ) You name it!  Don’t obsess about the numbers.  DO obsess about what you put in your body.  FEED it right.  Work it out.  We were meant to FEEL GOOD.